January 2024 Week 2

“There comes a time in your life when you have to choose to turn the page, write another book, or simply close it.” Shannon L Alder

Well Calm Crew, this is where I am at! Our intention this month, Let Go, was created for all of us to pause before we set New Year’s intentions to look back and reflect on what needs to be left behind and not brought into 2024, in addition I am feeling a deeper meaning for LET GO. I just scrolled my camera roll of 2023 and once again it was full of many blessings, adventures and amazing gatherings as well as sadness and losses. However…….this year there was a heaviness in my heart and head of my own doing, a storyline I have been ruminating and holding onto. I feel like it has had a noose around my heart and I am sooooo done with it and myself! I have been praying for relief and as the above quote says - it is time for me to either turn the page, write another book or freakin simply close it!!!! And as our intention simply says - LET GO!!!!!!!! It truly is my choice. They say ruminating in the past is depression and worrying about the future is anxiety, so in the midst of my amazing full year of gifts and blessings I have been vacillating between depression and anxiety. Now some of this I do blame on my cancer medication which causes anxiety and depression and the good news is I have 1 more year of that, but I truly feel like I am ripe for change and letting go on yet another level.
This brings me to my goal I set for myself in June of absolute self love. I read something recently that said “until I knew myself, I could not accept myself. Until I accepted myself, I could not begin to love myself.” Well you all know I certainly know myself as I am all in on self study and awareness, so it appears the missing piece for me is self acceptance. Can I truly accept myself, flaws and all? Releasing any projections I think people have of me that is negative? Can I accept my faults and remember they have been my greatest teachers? I can and as my friend MaryJo reminds me - we always get to choose again.
I have done some very deep work of once again uncovering these last 2 weeks and now it is time for me to walk the walk and accept myself fully and let go of the old story I keep replaying.
How about you? Is there anything diminishing your blessings and adventures? Anything weighing heavily on your heart and in your mind? Let’s LET GO together.